Christmastime is Here.....

And so another Christmas is upon us.

This will be my third Christmas without David here. It doesn't ever get any easier. I was looking at pictures from December of 2015 and I thought to myself...that was the last Christmas we were actually together here?! How can that be? I feel so robbed...my last three holiday seasons have been wasted, taken from me somehow...Christmas is my favorite time of year and I can't even get into it anymore. This year, I put a wreath on my door. That's it. That's the effort I put into my decorating. No tree, no lights, no decorations. They all remain in their boxes in the basement. The only time I listen to Christmas music is at work. My family and I aren't exchanging gifts because none of us have the time or the money, so we agreed just to not do it at all. It's going to be a low-key day at my mom's--just me, my mom, and my brother. And all that is okay with me.

I know that one day things will be different. Things will be back to normal. Not right away, of course. But at least next year at this time I will be down in Mexico to stay, so David and I once again will have birthdays/holidays/Christmas together, as it should be. And after that....once the visa is approved and the waivers are filed and THOSE are approved...he will be back here in the States where he BELONGS. With his wife...with his daughter....with his parents and his siblings and their families. We will eventually have kids of our own. And our Christmases will return to the happy, joyous, family-filled occasions they are supposed to be.

I cannot wait for that day...